1. He didn't rape me.
-If I wanted to justify myself...I'd say I associate sex with love [not my fault] and what sexual relations for that reason, I want it. But then it boils down to it, clothes hit the floor and the guilt sets in that I don't want sex. So I blame. In other words, you're not the first person I accused of raping. Plus, him and I didn't even have sex so yeah...
2. It is possible, that to a degree. I wanted/loved you for the things that you did for me sexual.
-I have no explanation. I don't even know if it's true. It's just, in terms of coming clean...it may be.
3. I lied to you on the phone because I was mad that you believed her. Because I knew deep down that you had every reason to believe her, not just because it's true, but because it is well within my character to do that. I was mad because you figured that out before I did. Thanks for calling me on it. I need you to call me on more stuff like that. I may be pissed at first, but if you're right. You know I'll fess up.
Basically, I'm not a bad person, I'm a hybrid. Like every other person on the planet, I'm capable of good and evil. I understand if you find yourself to worthy to call me your friend. If I were you, I would walk away from me.
The beauty of it is I'm not you. And you're a lot more forgiving than I am. Either way. I respect your decision. Thanks for sticking it out as long as you have.
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