We went through some super natural stuff. For sure, it was beautiful and noteworthy but can't be the focus. If that is what is needed, the universe will speak that. If not, things will go swimmingly either way. But I'm pretty sure the goal now is to move on. and I don't understand why, and I don't have a flipping clue what it all means, but I'll trust God. This is what he is telling me to do and despite the sudden wobbly feeling caused by my conversation with Richard, it's time to move on and I've known it.
But how do I handle it in the future when he wants to talk or has a moment of weakness. Cross that bridge when we get to it. Just stay focus on other stuff. Which you have plenty of. You know what to do.
That talk about physical versus super natural. And while of course we are spirits we are literally trapped in a physical world. I mean just look at what we walk around in. There are ways to temporarily transcends this world but we can't dwell in the spirit realm.
I say this because I think, it the spirit realm, Kyle and I are meant to have a child for some purpose. I believe that intuitively. In the physical realm to which we are bound, that is absurd. So, the stuff really gets messy.
To give you a better example of how out of sync the spiritual and physical realm are, think about this. A women's body in the prime place to have a child from the age of 22-26. How many 22-26 year old get married and live happily ever after. Very few, the divorce rates are insane and the people unhappy with their life are even more alarming. It doesn't add up or line up or grrrr, what is the purpose?!
And it doesn't make sense that I'm hurting after losing Kyle. Well, I guess it does. I love him, we've been involved for so long. It's always felt like it's ending and then hasn't so for all I know this could be no difference. I just...ugh, there are so many things I loved to change about how it all went down. But no more obsessing. #keepitmoving
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