361/365 Free-write in Blood 2

It just that him saying that last night gave me hope, that if that was truly what it was, if how he treats me was because of something I did, then I would do anything to change his mind. Then we could have a friendship but chances are it's not that easy. Chances are that's not the only reason for his rudeness, it's not the only reason we don't connect and it wouldn't change anything. I'm being selfish because I just don't want to walk away feeling like any of this is my fault. I want to clean up my mess. But I would also like it if he did the same. If we both called ourselves out on what we did wrong, I feel like it would peroxide to eachother's wound, so that we don't have to walk away picking at them. This break doesn't feel clean at all and that's what sucks. I feel like he hates and is annoyed by me. Which is also sucky. And if we come back together wanting to be friends and this isn't cleaned up if we don't know the full wrongs we've received