Late Night Epiphany

I have a better understanding of myself now.
I am very much the narrative thinker against which Christ was warning.
I presume to know who in my life plays a leading role,
how there role is meant to unfold,
the character arcs I will have
and though obvious,
the most important epiphany of all is that I expect to be the lead role.

No need to to go out of my way for any rewarding plot lines or character,
I most always be center stage.
It's not as selfish as it sounds,
if you don't believe me reference my favorite paragraphs from Dessa's chapbook, she explains it all.
However, it is an adverse way of thinking for several reasons;
leads me to ignore "extras"
forces me to hold those whom I've decided are supporting roles to higher expectations than they need be held
causes anxiety when plot lines don't unfold by some formula I've invented
I do selfish things such as not go out of my way to be a supporting role in other's life
I binge on spontaneous moment because much of my life feels rigid.

Alors, here is what we must do.
Repeat this mantra every morning for 21 days until I live out the words
(wanna know a crazy omen, it going to end naturally on 11/11/11 :-0)

Today I will live moment to moment,
I will trust my intuition and invest the majority of energy into peaceful moments,
I am always where I am needed and will do my best to use abilities to other's advantage.
I trust that my life has a fluid purpose and that I will not be able to know where it's going.
I know that every person I come in constant contact with is a key player and I will treat them with respect and lend an ear to anything they have to teach me.
I know that people come and go and it is all for the glory of the universe.
I will comply with everything the universe is teaching me.
I am grateful for everyone who has touch my life, everyone in my life and everyone entering.
It's going to be a beautiful a day