324/365 Free-write

I am a flower five seconds from bloom
hesitating in the jump,

I am a caterpillar forced butterfly
hanging limp from my cocoon,
would rather use it as a noose
than face one day of my potential.

I am playing Kakuro more hours a day
then I sharpen my pen.
Craving rewards for my efforts
Before i make them.

I am generation X,
claiming not to be.
I am wanting instant gratification
10 seconds prior to instantly.

I am making invalid excuses
and invalid reasons why they're valid.

I am very obviously fooling myself
and everyone else.
I am resume embellisher
lavish language layer.
Washed up actor with still a bit of skill.