15/30 At the beginning of the relationship

At the beginning of the relationship,

I was the sceptic.

You were the sweet talker who liked the way “forever” rolled off your tongue.

It’s amazing how soft and fluffy, [abysmal

appealing... sweet nothings can be.

I curled into the sweet,

until I ended up with the nothing.

You got me.

Or at least I made you think so.

I got tired of you contradicting me when I told you I wasn’t the one,

that we weren’t in love.

that our relationship was fated to be a moment.

[was fated to be]

Reality has a funny way of catching up to people.

In situations like these you really can’t fight it.

Once,

I made you promise never to tell me something you didn't mean.

I should've been more specific,

cause you surely meant to lie to me.

Destiny

has wrapped itself around us like a snake.

Deceit is part of the game

especially with worlds so young.

But is it wrong for this masterpiece to have dark strokes?

Dare we remove the darkness when it's so necessary?

It's okay if you love her,

okay if you love me.

Fine if neither or only one is true.

It doesn't matter.

In this relationship,

the most important three words aren't "I love you"

rather..."Here we are."

It's a declaration of meant to be if only for a moment.

The before,

after,

and all around has fallen away.

I’m stepping back.

Cause we're meant to be,

will to be,

I'll let it be,

let us be

"So be it

No worries"

I'm realizing

since day one

I’ve been fighting to rid my life of you

but i could never coerce my hand into letting you go.

Because I held on

I am my own savior.

At the end of the day it’s me.

I love me,

I need me,

I have me,

this fight is mine.

Relative to my life,

your significance is but a drop in my ocean.

I need every drop.

I need you.

But if and when I lose you,

I’m okay with it.