50/365 But how did I get here?

We can get to the real stuff.

I'm broken?

No, that's not the right word for it.

Sounds too bleek.

Basically, I used to be untouchable, invincible, and seemingly happy.

What can I say? Ignorance is bliss.

But now, it's like...suck.

I know.

I know what it's like to know someone who can be everything you need.

I know without fail people like that exist.

And that SUCKS!!

I was fine without knowing.

It almost seemed better that way.

Without longing.

Without desire.

Without emptiness....

I kept thinking it would grow on me, that I'd grow accustomed to it.

Emptiness doesn't grow on you.

It can engulf you, it can destroy you, but grow?

I'd guess not.

Don't get it twisted.

I'm happy.

Everything is good but it's missing and at the end of the day...

I feel it.

It all feels meaningless without love.

~I've been here too few years to feel this old.~

If I speak, in the tounges of angels but have no love I'm only a resounding noise. And if I have the gift of knowledge and if my faith moves mountains high but have not love, I am nothing.

I gain nothing without love.

(2 Corinthians 13)